Physical reality & energy
Welcome to my website.
I’ve decided to put all my content here, rather than write a book, because I want to disrupt the way we approach spirituality. I am not here to give you the answers or tell you how to be in life. I want to help people tune-in to what feels most important to them and bring that to life in their own unique way.
Rather than distilling everything down to an idea that progresses through a book that you can read in a logical order, you can approach this website more like a choose your own adventure. This page is here to give you some guidance about where to start and how to navigate it.
Probably the most important message that is weaved throughout all my content is that there is no one solution or answer. Life is messy and complicated and there is no final way to escape this. This website is an invitation to connect with the full spectrum of your being and to embody it in a way that feels good for you and is beneficial for the people in your life and, ultimately, all beings.
One of my strongest philosophies is that it is through facing our challenges, vulnerabilities and darkness that we develop both clarity and the capacity for joyful presence in life.
“Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children.” Khalil Gibran
About My Teachings
I’ve never had a teacher or a tradition but my biggest spiritual influences are Jung and Tantric Buddhism. I also resonate deeply with more practical advice that has come from people’s hard-earned wisdom.
There are some specific books, resources and experiences that have been life-changing for me and I wouldn’t have been able to get here without them. You can find the list of them here.
It’s important to me that by spiritual experience, I don’t mean checking out of our daily lives. I believe in finding the balance between engaging with the content of our lives and connecting with the more mystical and interconnected aspect of our beings. Ultimately, the two are inextricable and each is the doorway to the other.
All of my teachings are built on the foundation that we are body-heart-mind-souls. All of these aspects of ourselves and our experience arise interdependently together.
We can change lenses and focus in on the different parts but every aspect of experience will have a component of each of these intrinsically built into it.
I have split my website up into these different parts – the body, the heart, the mind and the soul.
As a general overview, the body is about the physical reality that we find ourselves in. The heart is about how we feel and connect to things. The mind is to do with clarity and how we understand life and ourselves. And the soul is all the parts of experience that are abstract to these things.
The true nature of reality is that the interdependent nature of these things is like a fractal that folds all the way down into the most minute and personal aspect of experience and all the way out to the largest and most Universal aspects of experience.
You will find that this fractal pattern resonates through my website – each aspect contains all the other aspects too. Every section of the website contains all the other parts and each page contains aspects of the full spectrum.
This is an expression of the sometimes rather frustrating and terrifying reality that we can’t land anywhere – it is all a process that is expressing itself through all these aspects at all times.
The purpose of my content is to help you feel into and connect with these different parts of yourself with more clarity, sensitivity and depth.
Here is an overview of the different sections of my website:
Where to Start
I’d always recommend starting with an intention setting exercise. This helps you tune-in to what is important to you in life and practice.
You may feel a strong draw to certain aspects of the website and I would encourage you to follow this intuitive sense, but if you need some clarity about what is best to focus on, the sections below will help you explore where to put your energy and attention.
Starting With Building a Healthy Being
If you want to focus on being an healthy and embodied version of yourself in the world, then start with the questions in the practice guides. They will help you reflect on the different areas and notice what feels most important right now.
The questions aren’t a test and you don’t need to be meeting all of them, all the time. It is through willing to be vulnerable and recognise our weaknesses or challenges that we are able to grow. The purpose is to help you realise what feels most important to you and where your biggest opportunity for growth lies.
Starting with Mysticism
If you want to develop the more mystical and spiritual aspect of experience, then start with the True Nature Framework. This is more about connecting with energies, forces and the Universal aspect of experience. Notice which parts feel out of balance and which experiences you would most like to have.
This part of experience is simultaneously the part that is most deeply personal and most transcendent. You are connecting with what feels most alive and resonant to your being but that also says less about you as a person.
Working with this part of the website is about finding your own creative way of expressing this through your being. You may find traditions, teachings, practices and therapies that help with different aspects of this for you.
If this feels blocked in some way, the most helpful thing to do is to work with someone one-to-one, either myself or another person who you feel really embodies the thing that you are wanting to cultivate and expresses this through their teaching.
I also work with teachers and leaders to help them broaden their experiences and deepen into an expression of the thing they most want to bring into the world.
Darkness and Sincerity
I have said this a lot, but there really is no final answer – there is only the experience of sharing in being in this moment together, and the full spectrum of what that brings.
With this in mind, when looking for teachers, I would stay away from anyone who claims to have all the answers and people who talk only about the light.
A huge red flag is if a person is unwilling to admit their vulnerabilities, to face the humbling reality that each person has their own answer within them or to be present with their own darkness and the things that are in shadow for them.
When we have shadows, we push our darkness down to our subconscious, but it doesn’t go away. Depending on the amount of power that we have, we either turn those shadows in on ourselves or we enact them in the world in unhealthy subconscious ways – people in positions of spiritual authority are more likely to be in the latter camp and will subtly and not so subtly undermine and belittle others to make themselves feel big.
This is hard to spot if you also have this dynamic within you, we are drawn to people who enact unhealthy dynamics, but it is surprising how commonly I spot this in very popular spiritual teachers.
I have heard the argument that this shouldn’t matter – that it is the techniques that need to stand up – but these subtle enactments of shadows will come out through everything that that person says and teaches. Everything we teach is an expression of our beings.
Know that your darkness is very welcome here. Depression, anger, hatred, pain, disdain, anxiety, stress, fear, violent thoughts and feelings and all the other aspects of ourselves that we often hide away or repress are all parts of the human experience. We need to learn to connect with these so that we can be whole and real, with ourselves and each other.
Getting these parts out can be a stressful and difficult experience, but ultimately it is through doing this that we liberate the energy that is tied up in these parts, in order to become healthier and more whole.
To give you some examples of this, my first big spiritual openings were in the context of shadow work therapy. This is done in a group setting and I was allowed to open to parts of myself that had been repressed.
I was a very emotionally closed person and in my first session, I sobbed wildly in front of a group of people. This was an intensely liberating and transcendent experience. I have also embodied my inner patriarchy, where I tortured the feminine, cutting it into tiny pieces and smashing it with a baseball bat.
These themes, of strong emotional expression, violence and sex, have resonated through my personal practice and path.
By sharing this, I am not suggesting that everyone needs to go as deep or intense as this, but I want to show how these things don’t necessarily say something about us. They are energies and parts of the collective conscious that influence all of us.
They have been put inside of us by our experiences, by societal structures and ultimately through Universal energies. We can create a huge amount of freedom of expression by releasing the contractions and untangling the knots that they create in us.
Underneath or inside every shadow is a little bit of gold – a healthy part of us that wants to come home and be integrated into a heartful way of being and it is through going to these places that we are able to uncover and connect with it.
It is through this process that we are able to unlock deep and lasting states of pleasure, connection, clarity and resilience in life.
I’m a huge believer in the importance of friendship and working in groups to complement our contemplative practice. Life is collaborative and we only exist in our relationships, so bringing this aspect into practice means we are more likely to make lasting and meaningful change.
Practice Guides for Groups – this is some suggestions of ways people can practice together
Group work can be within a formal practice environment, but it can also just be done with friends. Heart-sharing with a group of people is one of the most powerful rituals you can bring into life and before becoming a teacher I used to run fun rituals and explorations with groups of friends.
An aspect of cultivating connection with others and the world is building your spiritual library as if you are collating a team to support you in your growth.
The content that you read and listen to is like an extension of the people you engage with in the real world. I’d recommend finding people that feel inspiring in a real-life way, the sort of people you would like to be around, rather than some authority figure who is telling you what to do with your life.
Remember to Have Fun
Ultimately the path is incredibly steep, difficult and winding. We can get very lost, exhausted and scared at times.
Remember to enjoy the views and the company, when they are good. If you get good enough at this, you will realise that this is one of the best end goals in and of itself.
All my content is available for free. If you have found it useful, please consider donating the cost of a book through Paypal (£10 – 20). I really appreciate your support.